Catherine Paiz
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211 appearances
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first heard May 2025
last heard May 2025
Catherine Paiz’s voice in public audio — every appearance, attributed to the second.
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When the cameras were off, I wouldn't say that there was much of a change. I think if anything, at least I can speak for myself, I feel like I was pretending. You know what I mean? It's like, I feel like I was just so disconnected from myself. Not like everything around me, but like within myself, you know? And I was like... All of this happened so fast. I gave birth. We started a YouTube channel.
It grows overnight. I'm a new mother. I'm newly married. There's all these eyes on us. There's so many people that want things from us. It was just a lot of things. And so when the cameras were off, it was more like, I'm just going to sit here and breastfeed my baby. And just... Like scroll on my phone like I never went out. I never hung out with my friends.
When it first started, my heart sank. I'm like, oh my gosh. Like, I remember like sitting with my, oh my gosh, like, is this going to happen? You know? And then it was like, oh, well, I see him. I'm with him every day. Like we're co-parenting, we're married, we're business partners. I mean, when is he going to have time? But it's really interesting.
I was telling my mom the other day, I remember when I was 16 years old and I walked into a room where the TV was on and there was, it was that talk show, Tyra Banks. And there was a lady who said, if a man has enough time to go into the bathroom, he has enough time to cheat. And it just stuck with me. And I thought, does he have enough time to cheat on me? You know what I mean? Um,
And so that was kind of like the beginning. It's like, I don't know what's true or not. And, you know, and I'd even have moments where we'd be laying in bed, you know, just falling asleep. And I'd get a text from a random number. Your husband is out at a party with me. And I'm thinking like, he's right over here. So there's moments I didn't know what to believe. There's some things that are true.
There's some things that are distorted. There's some things that are not true. So it was really hard to tell.
Oh, you know, that comes with the territory. And let's not respond because we're just going to add fuel to the fire. And it's not true. I'm like, okay, you know, and. And you trusted him? I did. Yeah, I really trusted him.
Yeah. So there was a couple, there's like quite a few moments, but there was a couple of moments where I was like, I'm heartbroken. Like, um, the first one, let's go to the first. So, you know, I don't remember exactly the first, first moment because I feel like there's just so many, but, um, there was this one moment.
moment i had just had my daughter my second daughter she was about six months old or something and he was like hey i have to go to miami for a meeting and and i go please and i'm you know i'm the type of partner where i love for my partner to feel free like i trust you go you want to go on a trip you want to go boys trip whatever you want to do go like that's just my personality now i look back i'm thinking like i should change to change some things up a little bit and care a little bit more
But at the time, I just had a baby. I was tired. I was filming every day. I had another baby. It's taking care of changing diapers, breastfeeding, breastfed all my kids five years straight. So I'm super exhausted, super tired, you know. And so he said, I want to go to Miami. And I said, you know, you go, you go on your trip.
And I remember calling my mom and my mom saying, I would never let my husband leave. My baby's just a couple months old, like. you're, I don't know, you're different. And I'm thinking, oh, well, I don't know. I was like, you know, I think he deserves it. He's been working so hard. He edits, people don't realize he edited every single video on our channel. We didn't have an editor.
So I thought, you know, he deserves to go out. Like, it's okay. He wants to go on a business trip, whatever. I remember that business trip, like it was yesterday, that business trip. Mm-hmm. He called me quite a few times where I felt like, you're calling me a little too much. Like, I was just like, I don't know, like, it's okay, go have fun, you know? And he pocket dialed me accidentally.
And I heard women in the back, a couple women. And I thought, okay, well, okay, well, I guess my husband's hanging out with women. I'm thinking, whatever, hung up the phone, continued my day.
A couple of months go by and this blonde male makeup artist makes this video on YouTube talking about my husband and how he was in Miami and there was this group of people and there was all these girls and there was this bow and all these and to be honest with you till this day, I never watched the video.
But I have gotten that like information from some good friends who watched it for me and were able to like process it for me and help me process it. And I was pregnant in that moment. And I had to listen to that. And nobody knew I was pregnant. I was having my son. And I remember bawling and thinking, is this true? And even if it's not true, why are people saying this? This is like so detailed.
And I didn't believe the horrors, but it was like, am I... Am I just being stupid right now? Like, am I just really not sitting with this? Or do I vindicate him? Do I vindicate our family? And that's what I did. And I think back at my old self. I think, oh, poor girl. Like, I wish I could hug her today. Like, she was just going through so much.
And the old version of myself just wanted to protect that little piece we had in the family, you know? And I would see it in his eyes and I'm thinking like, I don't know, like something's not right, but I'm going to have a baby and I have to focus on the baby right now. So I wasn't sure, right?
And that was a big moment for me because there was some things that were being said that just, it just made a lot of sense. It was all adding up. You know what I mean? And did you confront him? Yeah, I did, but not in a way where I was like, It was more like, how do we fix this? Because this is not true. And he's like, yeah, that's not true.
This guy and he's making things up and oh my God, he's trying to extort me and this and that. And some of those things were true, some of them weren't. And I thought, how do we fix it? And I was just lying to myself. I knew deep inside, something didn't feel right. But then a couple months later, I was, we were filming this thing called Vlogmas on YouTube.
People film every day for the month of December. And we had done it, you know, it was like a common thing. I remember. We would do every winter. And this was in December. And I was, you know, at that point, I was about three months pregnant with my son. I didn't know I was having a boy yet. So I just, you know, I was pregnant.
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