Catherine Paiz
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211 appearances
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1 series
first heard May 2025
last heard May 2025
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My decision was solely based on the fact that I didn't want that to change people's perception of him because I thought that we could heal and we can get to a better place. I didn't want to say something and then them like have so much, you know, information. At the end of the day, it's like it's almost like gossip, like, you know, gossiping. And I believe I truly believe that gossiping is poison.
And so I thought, you know, this is my marriage and I'm going to I'm just going to keep it to myself because I need to figure it out within myself. When I decided that I wanted a divorce, that's truly when I told my parents and my family, it's like I want to get a divorce. And they were very supportive of me.
Yes. And for a while it was. But I felt at one point I'm like, everybody knows, you know, it's like everybody knows. It's it's it was like it started to become so obvious.
It deeply impacted my reputation. I felt like I was in a fishbowl and I couldn't... It's like all these eyes pressing in on me and I'm thinking like, oh my gosh, I don't know. Do I protect or do I say my truth and then my whole life changes? You know what I mean? And it's like... I always thought about my kids first. I need to be a mother to them. I need to mother them.
Their mother needs to be happy, healthy, laughing, playing. I don't want to have two separate homes right now. I don't want to have to figure out what I'm going to do for a living now because we've been doing this for almost 10 years. We've been doing this for so long. It was just me trying to just... Like navigate that with myself.
Like I didn't want to make these big impulsive decisions publicly.
say something or leave or say i'm staying with him even though i think there was moments where i'm like i'm gonna leave tomorrow like i'm gonna do this tomorrow and i'm just not gonna look back and i'm just gonna go and i'm gonna find a place and you know it we won't film and people are gonna wonder what happened to us that like i had those moments yeah i had those moments um but i think what was the hardest part about all of it was that he would never admit to it and i thought well if you're not admitting it to me you're not gonna admit it to the world right
So that was the hardest part.
Another thing to Alex is another big thing that I had in the forefront of my mind. And I look back and think like, oh, my gosh, I shouldn't have been thinking like that. But I felt like if I like if I broke the family, I'm thinking like I'm needing to break the family for this. Then I'm going to break everyone's heart.
I'm going to break millions and millions of people who watch us and who see sees us as this. Powerful power couple and I'm gonna break everyone's heart because this isn't real.
This isn't true This isn't what people think it is anymore and I also didn't want people to bash him because I'm like As much as he hurt me as much as I feel like I got stabbed in the back Like I can handle that but like can you handle the scrutiny and the all this it's like and clearly not because not my book didn't come out yet and he you know, but
For a long time, that was a huge part of why I didn't want to speak up because I don't want the father of my children to get this public humiliation. But then over the years, I thought, well, he already got it. I need to do what's best for me. I can't keep living in a lie. I can't not address the big elephant in the room.
There was a conversation that we had right before he had this big boxing match. He was the...
the uh it was like it was like our vet and then he was like the main person on the card and the night before i felt i felt like something was about to happen i don't know it was like this like intuition feeling like in my gut i'm like i don't know something feels really strange about tomorrow like the fight was going to be the next day and i we were in the living room and you know the lights were down the kids were sleeping and i said i'm not happy and he's like
Why are you why are you talking about this now? Why are you doing this now? I have a fight tomorrow. Like, can't you just be a little bit more sympathetic to, you know? And I was like, but I had to say it right now. I just I'm really not happy. Like, I genuinely don't feel good, Austin. Like, I don't feel something doesn't feel right.
And, oh, you know, we can have we could have this conversation after and this and that. And then the next day. He got really sick right before his fight. He had 103 fever. He was really sick. It didn't, it felt like a message. It didn't feel like he just randomly got sick. No one else got sick but Austin. And I walked into, they were staying at an Airbnb.
It was like the whole team, you know, everybody for the fight and they were getting ready to get in the Sprinter van or the bus. And I came in, had hair and makeup done. I'm like, hey, what's going on? He's like, come, come into the room. He's like, feel my forehead. And I'm like, oh my gosh. He's like, I have a 103 fever. It just came a couple hours ago. I don't know.
And I'm like, well, what are you going to do? I was like, you can't fight. He's like, no, I have to. Like, I can't not. And mind you, we just had this conversation about yesterday, like this gut feeling, like something doesn't feel right. And like, I feel like What happened that night in the fight was very... It was like a mirror of what's going on in our internal life.
Yeah, so basically, he got really sick. I went out into the floor. You know, we're all watching them on the ring. And the first time he got knocked down... I thought, oh my God, this is the first time I've ever seen my husband crumble. And my heart stopped and I wanted to scream and cry and yell. And just, I hated, I hated that moment. And then there was a voice and then he got knocked down.
It was the second one and then a third and then a fourth and then a fifth. And he just kept standing up. And I kept thinking, oh my gosh, this is who he is. He always stands up when he falls, right? And I heard this voice and it was like, it's okay. He's having an ego death. He has to go through this, hold space for him. Everything's gonna be okay. And we left the ring. We got in the ambulance.
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