Ciarán O'Driscoll

Another time when I took tablets, I was after taking tablets and they were the wrong tablets like, you know.

So I was always kind of looking for escape.

It was a dodgy tablet.

We were in Sir Henry's and I came over to Sir Henry's and people were starting to go home because we were only 15 at the time.

People were going home and I was going home and it was very quiet where I was.

Very quiet and my heart was pounding, like pounding out of my chest.

And I hopped into a taxi and I went straight to there.

They brought me to the Morsey Hospital.

uh i woke up the following morning i was near neon i woke up for the morning my mother was there with me like you know i'm not in her head and stuff like you know and um i swear i wouldn't do anything like you know i wouldn't do it anymore and stuff and i did it again i did it again i am i don't know was it fit in and stuff like you know um going around with people trying to fit in

I hung around with an awful lot of lads.

There was an awful lot of suicide.

But there would have been two lads.

I was very close to who committed suicide.

They would have been very, very good friends of mine.

It would have affected me big time.

One lad was, I was 20 and one lad, he was 19.

And the other lad then, that was an active addiction.

And the other lad then, I was, it was 2005.

I was about three years clean and sober, you know, and took an awful lot of them out.

The second lad took an awful lot out of me as well.