Ciarán O'Driscoll

Then I had a load of other friends and buddies who committed suicide as well.

Like I think Neil had a show one morning about it.

including one of my own brothers, one of my own brothers ended his life as well at 33.

So there was an awful lot of suicide around where I lived and stuff.

But I got clean and sober in 2002.

I was engaged since I was 15.

I was meant to go to Matt Albert and Gary Vaugh through Father Rocks.

There was talk about me going to Portugal through the probation services.

I was meant to go to Coolmine another time in 1999.

It was the Jazz Weekend and I met a guy.

They gave me in with the train tickets on the Friday of the Jazz Weekend.

I met a guy, an older guy, and I was telling him, I was telling him, look where I'm going.

And he said to me, you know, they'll brainwash up there, Caroline.

And whatever happened that weekend, whatever happened over the weekend, the Jazz Weekend, I forgot all about Goldmine Lake.

And in two or three weeks time, again, I was in the height of trouble.

I was in Ratmore Road then again.

It was Ratmore Road actually for the Millennium.

Yeah, in Cork Prison.

I was in there for the Millennium.

I was 17 the first time I was in court prison.