David Gillick

Richie Sadler.

Yeah.

Yeah.

And it was Richie, you know, and I've known Richie, like he's from Ballantyre.

He went to St.

Benilda's a couple of years ahead of me in school.

And, you know, I remember him talking and like, it was funny because like I knew him, you know, and I saw him in my area and I'd see him in like, say the local pub and stuff.

And I just never thought that was going on.

So when he spoke, I was like, yeah,

yeah, it just kind of hit me and I rang him and I remember what he said and it was kind of something similar that you said there, you know, like, you didn't buy it.

Like, Richie always said to me, even after that talk that he gave, we were chatting and then I obviously walked away and he said to me, he goes, I remember thinking to myself as you walked away, I wonder how he's going to cope, you know.

But he was great and just gave me advice and normalised it in many ways and off the back of that then, in January 2016, I started going to counselling and...

Yeah, I just, like, you know, I hated myself.

Oh, Jesus, did you?

Yeah, yeah.

I just, I resented the decisions.

You know, I kept beating myself up about, like, why did you go to America?

Why did you get on that flight?

That's when I first got injured, yeah.

Yeah, but this is the mindset.