Dr. Brian Pennie

But I felt a sense of peace.

For the first time in my life, I felt a sense of peace.

And I didn't have the language at the time, but I think that was a moment of surrender, a moment of letting go, a moment of acceptance.

I stopped fighting with my own mind.

I put up the white flag.

The fight was over.

And that just seemed to open up a space for something different.

And a couple of weeks later, I ended up going to a detox.

The benzos were in my system three weeks later.

I went to an opiate detox and I remember driving to the detox and there was a whisper in my mind, you might have a life again.

And this absolutely blew me away.

And it's crazy, Brenda, because if I could go back to any time in my life, people would think about happy times.

I would go back to that time in that detox because I just came back alive.

emotionally, psychologically, physically.

I can't even put words on it.

Like, I think it was a spiritual experience, but the world just glowed.

I had no phones.

I had no debts in that moment to worry about.

Obviously, I'd have to deal with that later.

It was nature.