Jeannie McKay
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160 appearances
4 recordings
1 series
first heard Jan 2025
last heard Jan 2025
Jeannie McKay’s voice in public audio — every appearance, attributed to the second.
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No, I wholeheartedly concur.
I think it was maybe even the first day I raised my baton and I saw him. It just went, whoa. And my brain instantly flashed on to... And the horror of it all, because by then I was 13 years post the abuse and I all of a sudden had all the power in the room and they were looking at me and I was getting ready to do something powerful and it was more than just music. Teachers have all this power.
Our whole job is to get them to do amazing things. That's our superpower. And for some, they're kryptonite. I would be planning my trips thinking, how could he have done this?
Why is he in my head when this is my band, this is my program? And most of the time it would be my stuff, my initiative, my thinking, my tours. She talks this through with Anne-Marie.
I didn't start healing until I stepped away from teaching band. Right. deep down inside of me, I just couldn't do it anymore. It just, it made me sick. It was, it was making me sick. I kept squashing it.
I walked behind the group. There were, I don't know, 10 of us that came off that plane. They arrived at Los Angeles International Airport. And walked out to where the bus was waiting at LAX, got on the bus, and there he was. And I froze.
walker she hadn't seen him in years just stared at him and his hand had come up to shake hands and my hand came halfway up to shake hands and you know things are going through your head like what's he doing here is is he going to try something all that it's just flashing through your head it you know, light speed. And I just put my hand down and someone behind me said, come on, move on.
And I just sort of blinked and shoved right past. I went right to the back row. Thank God it was empty. I couldn't breathe. I just trembled and trembled. I couldn't see. I couldn't see anything. I knew they were talking. The world was sort of black. And
Eventually, the tour hostess, she sat down beside me, hello, and I said, I didn't even say hello, I said, there's a guy on this bus, he molested me in high school, like something words to that effect. He shouldn't be here, he shouldn't be around students, you can't have him around kids. She goes, okay, can you point out which one? And I pointed out which one. She said, what do you want me to do?
And I said, Just let me out here. I'll be fine. I'll get back to the airport in time. I have my ticket. And they let me out at that place, that theater with all the stars, hands in concrete. They let me out there.
That was it. I sat in the sun, went for walks, swam a little bit, got back on the plane, came home, and knew I had to do something. If that could affect me 15 years later, I knew that if it did that to me, perfectly competent adult, I had to do something about it. But what? I knew he was still at it. Still teaching high school students. I knew he was.
He was still getting, you know, kids to go to Disneyland with him.
And so she took me into, it said, a soft room. So this was the kind interview room and it had couches. And I remember looking around, I think there was a camera in the ceiling. And so she just started asking me the questions in a very quiet way.
They talked with the superintendent. They talked with the librarian to get the yearbooks.
There was a lot of smoke, but no evidence for them to feel that they could move forward, other than my word, which should be good enough. And that's where it all falls apart for so many women. And so nothing happened.
We can't do anything for you under those laws. It feels like we've been here before. What I recall is that they said the laws back when I was that age, the laws were different. They'd been changed since.
But the laws essentially made it that I was almost property of my father. And if my father thought I'd been wronged, he would have to bring charges. But my father was dead and couldn't bring charges. Ironic that even my mother couldn't.
I just kept going because I needed to. I just wanted him away from children. So much of this has come just by me bluntly keeping going, right? And being fortunate enough to be so entitled that I can have psychiatric care when I need it. I can have a good job and with good benefits. And I've made it past his victimization of me when so many don't. And I've had the ability to just keep going.
I thought they had the power to advertise this predator across the land, but they barely had the power to get rid of him. It took forever to just get him to talk.
I attended Markham District High School where Mr. Walker taught me music. Today I write with a sense of deep sorrow at the loss of my youth and my trust. As a mother, I shudder at the callousness of a system that would pass this man from school to school. In high school, Doug Walker's actions led me towards adulthood before I had even experienced adolescence.
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