John (the shooter)

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921 appearances 1 recordings 1 series first heard Jul 2026 last heard 5 Jul

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We're All Insane · I Was a School Shooter · 5 Jul 2026 podcast

And I just feel like, OK, like all my friends in high school, like I'm away from them.

I'm not really connecting with them anymore because I'm busy with college courses and

And I just feel like now I'm overwhelmed.

And the little bit of support that I have from my social circle was gone.

But I was like, I can power through this.

I'll be okay.

And I start to have the sleepless nights.

And I tell people the most dangerous time is 2 a.m.

when you can't sleep.

And more and more of these nights are happening.

But people are also congratulating me on what seems like getting my life together.

And I don't want to admit that I'm backsliding, that I'm not doing as good as I appear to be.

I don't even want to tell my therapist.

I tell people I would go to therapy once a week.

You know, I might have a therapy session on Thursday, but if I have a horrible day on Monday or Tuesday, if I'm even suicidal on Monday, but I'm feeling better by Thursday, I don't want to admit to anything on Thursday.

I want to just power through this and just, I don't want to admit to anything.

You know, that was just a one day slump.

I'm fine.

I'm okay.

But in reality, like I was, you know, I was spiraling underneath the surface and I was afraid to admit it.

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