John (the shooter)
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921 appearances
1 recordings
1 series
first heard Jul 2026
last heard 5 Jul
John (the shooter)’s voice in public audio — every appearance, attributed to the second.
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I send the picture off to a couple of friends and family.
And, you know, my friends and family, they're worried about me still, right?
Everybody's still worried about me.
But in my mind, I guess I had actually seen this as like a symbol of trust that my therapists and my mom and others saw in me that they trusted me with this.
And then when some of my other family, some of my friends, you know, when they were worried,
instead of seeing it as worry and concern and love that they had for me in my mind i just start to like freak out like you don't believe in me you don't trust me like nobody's ever gonna believe in me again nobody's ever gonna trust me again you know all those like i'm not thinking in you know in the middle ground i'm not realizing things i'm just in the ultimatum of like it
You're either 100% with me or 100% against me.
And I just started to fall apart.
And now I'm like, fuck it.
You know, I'm tired of this.
I'm tired of people not believing in me.
I don't want to be labeled this way for the rest of my life.
And I was just like, I want to die.
And now there's no taking pills and waking up the next morning.
Now I have a shotgun and I have the key.
I can get to it and I can die anytime I want.
And but then my, my mind starts going into like, I don't want to like sit here in my bedroom as I was close to doing and just shooting myself.
I don't want my mom to find my body.
I don't want my mom to associate her home with my death.
And again, I just go right back to blaming everything that happened at that school and thinking, you know what?
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