John (the shooter)

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921 appearances 1 recordings 1 series first heard Jul 2026 last heard 5 Jul

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We're All Insane · I Was a School Shooter · 5 Jul 2026 podcast

If a year ago when I was trying to kill myself, then if I'd gotten more help, if I'd gotten more support, if they had gotten me into, you know, the IEP programming, if they had helped me out while I was in that school, I could have gotten my shit together.

Then I could have, you know, continued on in high school, been with all my friends like normal.

I could have been a normal fucking kid.

And that's all I kept thinking was like, I just want to be normal.

I'm not.

In my mind, I've always thought there's something wrong with me.

And now I'm just blaming everybody else.

And now I'm just angry and furious.

And now I'm just thinking, you know what?

If I'm fucked up, I'm going to make sure they're fucked up too.

You know?

I'm just thinking...

I want to die.

I don't want to die at home.

So I'm going to go to school and I'm going to fucking die in front of everybody.

I'm going to fuck them up too.

You know, I'm going to make sure that they never forget me.

I'm going to make sure that they have the sleepless nights too.

I'm going to make sure.

You know, and I hate myself for it because that's exactly what I did.

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