John (the shooter)
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921 appearances
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first heard Jul 2026
last heard 5 Jul
John (the shooter)’s voice in public audio — every appearance, attributed to the second.
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Everybody's, you know, like it's kind of one of those situations where everybody's left saying, like, nobody would expect this from me.
My mom was absolutely fucking devastated.
Yeah.
You know, I've definitely put her through so much.
And you know, it's, it's, it's strange sometimes when we're in that depression and we think about, you know, suicide or, or, or all types of things.
And we think that nobody's really going to care.
Right.
You know, but I had family and friends who absolutely loved me and I used to like the, the morning of the shooting, I literally thought like, you know, maybe I should just go off into the woods and kill myself.
And I remember thinking, like, I was in such a place that I thought, like, I can walk off and kill myself and nobody's going to fucking notice for a while.
Like, I could literally, even once my family, you know, realizes something's off, like, I could be dead and buried and most of my friends would never even fucking notice for a while.
Like, but in reality, like, I had a lot of people who cared about me and a lot of people who, like, like I said, I was not as social as I once was, but...
And even for those who feel like they don't have any friends, even for those who feel like nobody's really there, you know, especially like you said earlier, there's so many pros and cons of social media.
Today, you can connect with so many people who are going through the same exact thing that you're going through.
And sometimes it's from people and places you would never expect.
When I was in prison, you know, I would not only, when I did eventually open up, I would not only connect with my friends.
Yeah.
And share with them some of the things about my life and talk about the sexual abuse and talk about the depression.
And sometimes some of my friends would open up about their own depression, especially some some of my friends, you know, they would I would tell them, please feel comfortable.
Tell me how you felt after the shooting and everything like, you know, I need to know these things.
know honestly it took me a couple years where i was where i was like really into this self-help kind of healing journey because first in prison i was just kind of like it i don't care like i didn't feel anything and it's not like you just snap out of that right state no i'm just kind of in this dark mindset where i'm also just like not willing to face what i've done and i'm also just kind of like all right
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