John (the shooter)

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We're All Insane · I Was a School Shooter · 5 Jul 2026 podcast

I'm going to be in prison for a long time.

Might as well just get used to prison.

20 years of which, you know, with good time, I served about 17.

But yeah, so I didn't really open up and start to work on myself for the first three or four years at least.

And when I did first start to open up and really like challenge my mindset, my depression, all these crazy thoughts that I would have at different times.

you know, even when I just opened up, even when I first told my, I actually, I first told my sister about the sexual abuse.

I'd been in prison for a couple of years and I told her before I told anybody else.

And it was just like a weight off my shoulders.

You know, it's literally when people say that it's because you don't realize how much some of this, like these things that we hold on to, how much they like physically are taking a toll on us.

It's

When I opened up, I just felt a release and I would continue to just feel better the more I opened up and talked to people.

And I was able to find, you know, sometimes it might just be like some family on a visit or in a letter.

And then eventually even other prisoners who are working on themselves and turning their lives around.

And that's when I tell people like, yeah, like I'm this, you know, middle class white suburban kid, you know, opening up and talking with like, I had some guys I used to have deep conversations with who were like, one guy grew up from California, West Coast, you know, he's crip, he's, you know, gang bang and all that shit.

And we had some deep conversations sometimes in the yard.

And it's just kind of like, you never expect it.

You know, like prison is not all like what Hollywood portrays it as.

There's a lot of like deep conversations happening.

And sometimes it's, yeah, I just kind of put myself out there.

I'm just kind of like, you know, most people are like nerdy looking white kid.

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