John (the shooter)

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921 appearances 1 recordings 1 series first heard Jul 2026 last heard 5 Jul

John (the shooter)’s voice in public audio — every appearance, attributed to the second.

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We're All Insane · I Was a School Shooter · 5 Jul 2026 podcast

And now, now there's no doubt.

Everybody knows I'm dying.

But also I tell people, like, I accepted it.

You know, and there was something powerful in that moment when I was no longer freaking out.

When I accepted that I was dying.

And I also tell people at that point, I'd been home from prison for about a year and a half.

And...

I had connected with some of my old classmates.

Obviously, there was still a lot of hate and anger towards me, but some people reached out to me for healing.

I had connected with family.

I had started up this job where I was helping people.

I had talked with law enforcement and mental health specialists and school officials.

the FBI and had done what I could to help prevent others from going into their school with a gun like I did.

And, you know, obviously I survived.

I mean, when the first responders and everybody got there, my coworkers had like wrapped me up with towels and trying to like stop the bleeding.

First responders would later tell me nobody thought I was going to survive.

They did their best to wrap me up as best they could, get me into the ambulance.

And I went into a coma for a couple of days.

Why am I still here?

Why am I still alive, you know?

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