John Delony

And this isn't healthy.

It's not good.

Yeah.

The fact that that wasn't the conversation, it was you're gross, you disgust me, get out of my... So you sitting down with your fiance and saying, hey, look, I'm still to this, here's the programming I've got that I'm not enough.

And the way I have tried to feel alive in my own skin is through pornography and I'm done with that.

I'm going to trip up and I'm going to stumble.

I'm going to feel guilty because guilt is right because I've set a value for myself and I've tripped over my own values.

But I need you to know there's going to be times when I need you just to put your hand on my hand.

To put your forehead on my forehead.

Because I've got it wired into my nervous system that the people closest to me are going to leave because I'm not enough.

Yeah.

And she might say, actually, I've been meaning to talk to you and y'all need to have that conversation now.

Or she's probably going to say... I said I would marry you.

I'm never going to leave.

I think you're enough.

And by the way...

beginning to believe and learn that i am worth being loved and those two people didn't do a good job at all but i am worth it you have work to do you can't just sit in a room and imagine what happens next it's your job to go find mentor relationships because you can't rely on your parents and we're not going to cut them off i'm still going to show up at thanksgiving but they don't get a vote anymore

Yeah.

It's my job to go show up and do the work when it comes to my professional work, to my academic work.

I'm going to make good grades because that's kind of guy I am because I'm worth that.