Ken Rideout

And to a certain extent, maybe people thought it was, I mean, I was irrational and crazy, but it wasn't me.

And I had to live with this.

So I would push that down of like, you're a loser.

No, no, no, I'm okay.

I'm making money.

It's good.

I'm just...

Like you were saying, I was faking my way through and I kept feeling like they're gonna eventually figure out that I'm an idiot and fire me or I'm gonna get run out of this job.

I really believed that subconsciously.

And it took probably until I was in my late 40s where I would say to my wife, I'd get a deal done or something good would happen financially or professionally.

I'd be like, yes.

I'm like, oh God, man, I could never get a deal done like that again.

And I go, I gotta make this money less.

And she's like...

Since I've known you, every time you get something good done, you think it's lucky.

If you win a race, you think you will know all the competitors that showed up stink.

There was always a reason.

She's like, at some point you should believe that like you actually have some acumen to do these things.

And recently I've started to accept.

Same here.