Ken Rideout

And I'm not playing well.

And all of a sudden I hear a crowd, right out sucks, right?

Dude, I was suicidal for like three months.

I was like, I'm going to kill myself.

I can't believe that the whole crowd was chanting, I suck.

But to an 18-year-old brain that doesn't have a lifetime of experience, that to me was like, I can't believe.

They really think I suck?

I didn't think I sucked.

I wasn't playing good, but I suck.

And what it was, it was probably a couple of a**holes.

And then everyone's like, ha ha, let's do this.

Not realizing like the damage that it did to me at the time.

I mean, now I can laugh about it, but man, that really hurt my feelings at the time.

Oh yeah, I like that too.

I use, I try not to let other losers impact my life.

So I have done a very good job of blocking out the like, I'm going to prove them wrong.

I'm like, you're already wrong because anything you think negatively about me, you're wrong.

I know I'm like a good person.

I know I'm a good dad.

So I'm chasing the validation of being like, I did like, I'm chasing my own goals.