Ken Rideout

I want to go down there and smash everyone.

She's like, are you crazy?

Yeah, I mean, it destroyed me.

It destroyed everything that I thought and believed about myself.

It crept up on me.

I was taking the pills every, you know, a couple times a week, then quickly like every night.

And then I was like so hung up feeling in the morning from taking drugs the night before that I'd take them in the morning.

Once I realized that they would give me a little pick me up in the morning, then I was taking them in morning, lunch, and after work.

But I would always exercise and I always treated the drugs as like a reward in this like crazy system that I had in my brain.

But even when I got my first job in finance, like I talk about in the book, the guys are like kind of hazing me a little, which was crazy to me at the time.

They're like screaming at me, write this.

You know, I'm writing the prices on the whiteboard as they're shouting them before electronic trading.

It's in like 96.

And one of the guys throws a dry eraser at me and I just slapped him across the face and they fired me.

And I was like, oh, I couldn't control myself.

I let my emotions get the better of me.

But anyway,

When that happened, some of the traders at Enron, which was the behemoth in the market, the guy was like the Gordon Gekko, the head of trading there.

He was the biggest commodities trader.

He heard the story, loved it.