Liliana

Like freaking, I'm a mean little girl.

I did not get along well with other girls because I just didn't know how to talk to other girls, like whatever.

But I did have a couple of friends here and there.

But yeah, or sometimes like my mom would watch, you know, another girl would ride home with me because our moms knew each other.

So she would like watch us for a few hours until her mom could come pick her up or whatever.

So yeah.

But yeah, I didn't really understand the issue with seeing some people and then other people were okay.

Like I could not figure out why.

So like I said, he really liked to party a lot and play guitar really loud.

I had it plugged up to the amps and he's like, that's... When I think about him, like that's something he was passionate about was music.

So he was always blasting his freaking guitar in the garage, which would have been fine, except my bedroom was directly above the garage and...

if he like there's zero respect for me why would he stop playing it when it's time for me to go to bed right so I started struggling to fall asleep I eventually got used to it but I remember during this time it was really difficult to to fall asleep so I would be having trouble falling asleep and he would you know take a break from playing guitar come up and check on us and I would still be awake and then get in trouble for still being awake or I would fake being asleep and then he'd be like I know you're faking whatever stuff like that

And I would be in trouble for not sleeping even though it's like you're keeping me awake.

Hello?

Like...

again is anyone home like what's going on like but yeah so he started like being weird about about my sleep like coming in and telling me like when I check on you tonight you better be asleep if I if I check on you and you're awake I'm beating your ass and stuff like that and it was it was just difficult I'm like I can't force myself to I can't fall asleep if I can't fall asleep that's what it is so he was just kind of like being weird about our sleep and then also too like I said he would he would lecture me on don't tell anybody what we do at home don't

talk about what goes on in this house and stuff like that.

And he would also do this thing.

It was really weird.

I genuinely, as a child, felt like he was possessed because of the way he would switch.