Liliana

I'm the king of this house.

You only listen to me.

You don't listen to your mom.

Don't listen to anybody but me.

Hello?

That's my mom, and you are not my dad, which I didn't know that at the time, but it's just like...

I don't know.

And my mom would stand there and let him say this stuff.

Yeah, to go against him was to go against God.

To disobey your parents was a sin.

You will go to hell, is what I was taught.

I was not given the option to ever say no.

So even though what he was doing was making me wildly uncomfortable, because I couldn't breathe.

I'm six years old at this point.

I might have been five, but I can definitely say six.

Just because...

You know, with sexual abuse, your brain tends to get a little foggy on stuff like that.

So even though I really hated what he was doing, I did not feel like I had the option to say anything because my experience before was, you know, it doesn't matter what you feel.

It doesn't matter what you think because what he says goes and that's it.

I couldn't breathe or like my I remember my teeth would scrape against him and it would make him mad.