Liliana

Like, he was like, it was my finger.

I don't know what you're talking about.

And I was just like, okay.

But I remember like, you know, your knuckles have grooves.

What that was was smooth and the shape of it was different.

But because I didn't see it, I didn't know.

I was just like, well...

I guess, you know, whatever.

In Christian households, because believe it or not, my parents are still raising me as Christian, telling me that if I lie, if I do anything like that, I'm going to burn in hell forever and all kinds of stuff.

But the way that houses work within Christianity is there's a hierarchy.

So there's God above all else.

And then there's the father, then the mother, then the children.

So we were expected to only listen to him.

Like if our mom said something, but he said something else, it was his word over hers.

But then around this time that he started like doing the sexual stuff to me, he put himself up with God.

To go against him was to go against God essentially.

A lot of times, like, he would see me doing something, say I'm just, like, eating a cookie or something, and he'll be like, who said you could have that cookie?

And I would be like, mommy said I could have this cookie.

And he would just, you know, go apeshit.

Like, what have I told you?