Meagan

my boobs are so sore.

So I like clasped my bra and like slid it.

And I was leaning forward, like taking my exam.

I was so stressed out and I was a little nauseated, but I was like, whoa, I'm so stressed.

Well, we ended up getting home and it had been about a week or so.

I hadn't started my period.

And so I was like, let me take a test just in case.

Cause I was going to drink that night because I had just passed my nursing exam.

I was excited and I was pregnant.

And I was really bummed.

I was, I, which I love my child.

My child is my whole life.

But in that moment, I was very, very upset just because that was not what I wanted to do.

I wanted to go get my nursing license and then I wanted to have children and we were not in a good place financially.

Yeah.

I was going to say too, even emotionally, like you're probably just disconnected.

We were not in a good place at all.

and a lot of causes of postpartum depression also are low socioeconomic classes, poor financial, things like that, stressful environments, hormones, all of it plays into one.

And I just had the perfect storm.

I went and I sat on my front porch and I smoked a cigarette because I did used to smoke.