Meagan

to be my husband's children I wanted her to be my husband's only child and that thought scared me pretty bad very early on but I was like you're just jealous it's jealousy like that's all it is you're just jealous get over that you love these babies you love this man this is fine because I kept pushing everything down pushing it off to this is an excuse it's fine

And so that was the first night and it was awful.

I remember laying in bed that night in our bedroom and she was sleeping.

We didn't have money for a crib or anything.

So she kind of slept in a little swing and she was sleeping kind of down on the floor.

Our bed's pretty tall.

And I could hear something in the corner of the room again, like a rustling, a tinkling.

And I was like, it came here.

Like, why is it here?

This is my house and it's in here.

And that it scared me pretty bad.

And so I told my husband, I was like, we need to sleep in the living room.

I was like, let's just sleep on the couch.

I was like, I'm sleeping too hard in the bedroom.

The bed's too tall.

Can we just sleep on the couch in there?

And he was like, yeah, that's fine.

And I had to study for nursing school.

Anyways, I actually had an exam and

In a couple of days, that was Friday that we got to go home from the hospital.