Meredith Monday Schwartz

Like, has very, like, she's not actually invisible, but, like, metaphorically.

I don't, I like a lead character with some pluck.

Yeah.

This woman is pluckless.

And I am really struggling.

But what do you do when you're in a book club, especially a book club that you really, really care about and that you know everyone else?

Like this isn't a book club where people are like, I don't know, maybe I'll read it, maybe I won't.

Everyone is really making an effort here.

Invested.

And I don't at all want to let anybody down, but I don't really know how I'm going to be able to push myself through.

So I don't know.

But I'm like, I wish I wasn't having this experience.

Well, I mean, for sure, because I definitely like...

I definitely want to talk about it and I want to hear what everyone else thinks about it.

And I have a lot of thoughts about why it has or hasn't been working for me.

So yeah, there's going to be a lot of discussion for sure, which is the entire point.

I know that these five people are not going to be like, oh my God, I can't believe they don't care if I finish the book or not.

But I, you know, I just want to be as good a reader as the rest of them are.

And so I don't want to let anybody down.

But also I'm just not positive I'm going to be able to push through because it's kind of just giving me the ick.