Rachel Forde

I know there'll be plenty of my family and my loved ones saying, you're not brazen, you fucking are.

But, you know, I respect authority.

And, you know, like I am, I do consider myself very respectful.

And the way...

The way my mindset and my attitude changed so drastically is absolutely frightening.

So I left the guards in.

They were doing a welfare check.

I didn't remember, but I had said a lot of stupid things the night before and I had worried a lot of people who loved and cared for me.

So they came to do a welfare check and I left them into the sitting room.

It was probably about four o'clock in the day, Brenda, and my blinds were still pulled and, you know, I had no shoes or socks on me and the guards were talking away and they were talking away.

And to this day, I don't know what they were saying.

I have no idea what they were saying.

But something else clicked to me that day in my sitting room with those two guards.

And they left me.

And I left straight after on Brenda.

I didn't put on a shoe.

I didn't put on a sock.

Anybody who knows me, you've never seen me without a cigarette before.

Ever, ever.

And I had cigarettes and I left them there.