Russell Brand

Even now, I follow a God that was tempted.

But I'm personally, I'm not going to participate.

I must want to feel more and more.

I don't need something because...

vivid and sort of like gargoyle like as the piers morgan encounter to recognize that i don't want to even be in this world so why are you then russell what is it that keeps pulling you in and as always when i look back to when i was a little kid i wanted to be famous because i wanted to not feel worthless inside but also there was something in me that i'm beginning to understand is well you

Maybe this is going to kill you one day.

And are you ready?

Because you don't want to follow me where I'm going, he says.

You don't want to follow me where I'm going.

Yeah, I didn't know that Beelzebub meant Lord of the Flies, but even at the time that that image came to me, that image came to me first, not as flies, but as iron filings.

When this moment where I was in the field with my dog Bear, when I was sort of, you know, as is often the case, somewhat suicide adjacent,

I felt the cross come in my abdomen, come to me in my abdomen.

I call it kinetic psychedelia.

I imagine psychedelia always to be sort of, I don't know, visual or something.

But it was like my stomach felt like, oh, what is that?

And from that second, I knew he's real.

See our man Saul of Tarsus, you know, in my mother's womb, I was the protector of the Gentiles, he says, huh?

So I have worshipped and loved a lot of idols and a lot of gods, a lot of Hindu deities, a lot of earthly pleasures and a lot of transitory treasures.

But

The heroin and crack is interesting to me and maybe to you because if you are really, really trying to suck some meaning out of this dead, inert world, chemicals can really help because they do alter your state.