Samantha Christine (Sam / SAMCFIT)

So I think for you to show like, that's okay.

I know.

It's probably very inspirational to a lot of women, which is amazing.

A lot of it goes beyond diet and lifestyle.

That's out of our control.

So at the end of the day, it's like,

Yeah.

Gotta do what you gotta do.

I had a very hard time, but I didn't let that be known to anyone around me.

I did.

I've always like been the type of person to be like, I'm strong.

I can do this.

And I think it was kind of like that survival state of mind, just getting through it.

But looking back, I wish I had like asked for more help.

I think that I definitely undiagnosed had postpartum anxiety.

Yeah.

Thoughts would come in my head of, are they breathing?

Like multiple times I would go into their nursery and like check to see if they're breathing multiple times a night.

You know, or like,

I felt so out of it like oh my gosh what if I accidentally like drop them because I'm so sleep deprived or you know fell asleep holding them and they suffocated like these thoughts that are pretty morbid would come in my head which would freak me out.