Shonda Rhimes

So I better get it together and make myself want them.

And I think for so many of us,

You can feel yourself dying on the vine.

You really can.

Like I felt like I would think about what life would be like and I would have, I would panic.

I have nightmares.

I was having sleepless nights.

I was really worrying about like, how would this work?

And yet at the same time, I really love this person.

This person was wonderful, but their idea of what perfect life was and mine were completely different things, right?

Completely different things.

And for me, I would say the biggest yes that I said yes to was difficult conversations.

I don't think any of us do.

I think we all instinctively run from conflict as much as we possibly can.

I mean, I think that's just a fact.

I still struggle with trying not to run away.

But the reality of it is, is the energy you expend...

Like making it okay that somebody else is doing something that you're afraid to talk to them about.

The work that's involved in sitting with whatever it is they're doing that's driving you crazy or whatever it is that's happening to you that you won't confront is so much more depleting than actually just saying the thing that you need to say.

And, I mean, I was really bad at it.