Theo Padnos

Thinking I didn't know. I didn't know. And I would remind them and they'd be like, oh, well, oh, well. Anyway, the thing you asked me, like, what is the darkest place? And at the time I was like, I can never tell anybody that the shameful thing happened to me, that they brought me to this abject condition that I submitted myself.

It was the psychological condition. I was so in their power. I was so at their feet. I was so like, anything you do, I will, anything you want from me, I will give it to you. I lied so much to them. You know, I betrayed myself so deeply. How so? By telling them everything that they wanted to hear. By acting. Lying about? I'm a CIA agent. Did you kill Anwar al-Awlaki? Of course.

It was the psychological condition. I was so in their power. I was so at their feet. I was so like, anything you do, I will, anything you want from me, I will give it to you. I lied so much to them. You know, I betrayed myself so deeply. How so? By telling them everything that they wanted to hear. By acting. Lying about? I'm a CIA agent. Did you kill Anwar al-Awlaki? Of course.

It was the psychological condition. I was so in their power. I was so at their feet. I was so like, anything you do, I will, anything you want from me, I will give it to you. I lied so much to them. You know, I betrayed myself so deeply. How so? By telling them everything that they wanted to hear. By acting. Lying about? I'm a CIA agent. Did you kill Anwar al-Awlaki? Of course.

Anwar al-Awlaki was an American preacher who was bombed, droned to death by the CIA.

Anwar al-Awlaki was an American preacher who was bombed, droned to death by the CIA.

Anwar al-Awlaki was an American preacher who was bombed, droned to death by the CIA.

And his son as well. So this is something I confess to. But they have to have known that this is absolute absurdity, that you were responsible for this. Part of what they're trying to create is like a belief force field. It's like belief that is so intense that you cannot deny it. And when you are down in the torture room... It's dark. There are candles on the floor.

And his son as well. So this is something I confess to. But they have to have known that this is absolute absurdity, that you were responsible for this. Part of what they're trying to create is like a belief force field. It's like belief that is so intense that you cannot deny it. And when you are down in the torture room... It's dark. There are candles on the floor.

And his son as well. So this is something I confess to. But they have to have known that this is absolute absurdity, that you were responsible for this. Part of what they're trying to create is like a belief force field. It's like belief that is so intense that you cannot deny it. And when you are down in the torture room... It's dark. There are candles on the floor.

There's men covered in guns and grenades all around you. It's like a community experience. They bring the little kids down there. I'm sorry, stop.

There's men covered in guns and grenades all around you. It's like a community experience. They bring the little kids down there. I'm sorry, stop.

There's men covered in guns and grenades all around you. It's like a community experience. They bring the little kids down there. I'm sorry, stop.

Of course, the little kids participate in the torture.

Of course, the little kids participate in the torture.

Of course, the little kids participate in the torture.

They had little child-sized cables.

They had little child-sized cables.

They had little child-sized cables.

Sometimes, yes, but also they have like galvanized steel cables, the kind of thing that, like a highway guardrail. They take these things, they cut them into like four foot lengths and then they barb up the end so that when they hit you, like the shaft of the cable will wrap around your body and the barbs will sink into the flesh like that and rip it out.