Will Bynum
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273 appearances
4 recordings
1 series
first heard Sep 2022
last heard Oct 2022
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And that was the sort of the depth of the shame.
The recovery was not quick and it was not easy, partly because I didn't know what I was experiencing.
I didn't know what I was feeling.
Part of the acceleration of that sort of decay, if you will, of the shame, I achieved through reaching out to other people.
I mean, I met one of my best friends who was in my residency class for breakfast a few days later.
And he was the first person I told about it.
That was very helpful.
I mean, it was helpful just to bring some sort of release into that situation.
But the most important thing that did was that allowed him to say, I think this was just an unfortunate outcome that could have happened to anybody.
That was huge for me because up to that point, all I was seeing was my own inadequacy, my own failure, my own transgression.
And what he helped me see was that it wasn't just me, that there was a circumstance and a situation and something that may have been somewhat out of my control.
And so it actually took me out of a very self-centered place, centered on my own distress and into a place where I could see myself more objectively.
And then for the first time I was able to think, oh God, I mean, what about the patient?
I never went and showed my face to the patient.
which was so far outside of my values.
And as it turns out, I later found out through a colleague, she wanted me to come by.
She was looking for me because she wanted to thank me for helping to save her baby in an emergency situation.
So that experience of sitting down and talking to someone about this and having that perspective was huge.
And then over time, I just had to come to see myself as an imperfect person who makes mistakes, but is willing and able to learn from them.
We also wanted to create a shared vocabulary around shame experiences so that when those of us in the healthcare profession experience shame, we have a label for what it is that we're going through.
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