Cara Delevingne

I was honest with her from the first get go.

I was like, I have a problem.

I take G every day.

I'm gonna get better.

I'm gonna, my 30th birthday was that year.

I was like, I've fucking gained it for however long and had a great time and it's just not great anymore, but I'm gonna have a blowout 30th birthday and then I'm gonna get sober and tie it up in a neat little bow that I just thought was gonna be really easy.

I didn't know how addictive that stuff was.

I just thought I took it every day.

I didn't know you really had to like medically detox from it.

And I started having seizures and that's literally, those photos were taken right after I'd had a seizure at Burning Man.

And I was meant to go to work.

I mean, it was just an absolute storm.

And also,

It was just, it was so rough.

And it was right after my birthday, so I'd had the 30th, which was just me in, it was so stupid, but I'd rented this amazing house and I'd had all my friends there, but they were kind of all there to watch me hurt myself.

I was so skinny and covered in bruises and I just locked myself in this little tower and would barely come out.

And that is like, but that was what I just...

I don't know, there's something quite traditional in the sense that when I'm like, when I make this decision, it's gonna happen.

I also just couldn't give up that easily.

Cause then obviously I went straight to Burning Man, then that happened.