Cat Burns

So then when he was out, I was like...

Thank goodness.

And then as I got older, you know, you unpack, you develop, you know, you start to seek connection.

And I think I was really boy crazy when I was a teen, which is crazy because I am a gigantic lesbian.

But I was really boy crazy when I was a teenager.

And even now thinking about it, it's probably because I was trying to seek a male love.

And then as I got older and lockdown happened and you unpack things, I was like...

I've got males in my life that I love.

I've always had boy best friends throughout my life.

So I'm like, I've got the males in my life that I love.

I've got that.

I don't actually like any of these.

I don't like them.

I don't fancy them.

I don't want to be with them.

And then when he passed away, that was when the real growth happened.

Because it was like, you can place blame and put anger on a person whilst they're still alive.

But...

When they're not, it's just like you're smacking something at the wall and it comes straight back at you.

Totally.