Dearbhla Mescal

This is, oh my God, my children are never going to learn.

And they do go.

And your joys have to be found within yourself.

And so I, you know, that was one of the things I remember writing, you know, kicking the shoes.

dance over them and then when you're folding the laundry like you're putting something into it yes do it with love you know like you're folding it like with intention with intention and so I try now not every day I can promise you it's not every day but I do try intentionally to

It's like, you know, now it's WhatsApps.

You know, I send them, like I was flying over today and I sent the kids, love you all, see you on the other side.

And that'll land wherever, at whatever point in the day that they see it.

But those little that's a little moment for me.

It's like a kiss on the on the forehead when they were small.

That's my kiss.

And now with these grown up people.

But folding the laundry or like when Nell comes home, like having her room nicely, you know, just just because it's you want that.

You just want them to know.

They were missed.

I want you to be gone but you're missed when you're gone.

It's kind of that balance of you're supposed to be somewhere else but I do miss you.

I do miss that.

Yeah.

Life is so precious, and I have cancer.