Jason Donovan

I'm a bit of an all or nothing type of guy.

I also kept very fit.

I have done all my life.

And that's the little thing that knocks on your door.

Just go to the gym, have a steam, have a swim.

You walk out and you've done your big three-day or something and you walk out and you feel great and you go –

See, Jason, that's what you can feel like if you don't get back on it again.

Now, you'd feel great for two days and then that little demon in your head would come along and go, come on, let's do a cheeky one.

Let's blow it all up again.

Let's blow it all up again.

And that was the problem, you know.

But to go back to your point about changing, the catalyst of change was that, you know, I was the cat chasing its own tail.

I was listening to so much bullshit from, you know, nightclubs and stories and Browns and China White and bloody –

You know, all those clubs, met bars and, you know, coming back to mine and getting on it and seeing the sunrise, playing table tennis, you know, in my muse house, you know, like, do you know what I mean?

On one, it just becomes boring.

It becomes fucking boring talking about yourself and chasing your own tail.

And, you know, the paranoia, particularly with cocaine, starts to set in.

In what ways?

Well, you know, 24 hours into something like that, you think, you know, the MI5 are outside your window.

Do you know what I mean?