Joe Loya

What happened?

I said, I got beat up for that.

He comes over, slaps me, and he said, his son's not going to be a sissy.

He gets me in the car and says, I got to go fight.

We're going to find those three guys, and I got to fight them each individually.

This is what I mean by moral confusion.

We're not talking about...

oh, my dad, you know, he just raised his voice.

He slaps us around.

I'm telling you, I walk in, he's preparing for church.

And this disillusions me even further because had he just been a regular blue collar worker who went to church with me on Sunday and beat me up, I'm like, okay, that's everybody.

You're right.

But this is different because I'm being encouraged to aspire to higher themes and I'm watching my father do it.

And on Sunday,

I'm watching the entire congregation love on my dad because he's that guy who's inspiring them to the higher themes.

And I'm looking around saying, you guys don't see it?

We're getting beat up all the time.

We got bruises on us.

What are you guys doing?

And it disillusions me to the whole rigmarole.