John (the shooter)

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921 appearances 1 recordings 1 series first heard Jul 2026 last heard 5 Jul

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We're All Insane · I Was a School Shooter · 5 Jul 2026 podcast

They were good.

I had friends.

I was social.

And it wasn't until I was, you know, 13, 14 years old that I started to fall apart.

And at this time, I was still social, but I wasn't as open.

I wasn't as talkative.

I was there, but I wasn't, if you know what I mean.

And the depression really started to kick in.

And I just...

could be in a room full of friends i literally remember this one afternoon i've got like eight or nine friends over at my house i'm dating this girl i'm 15 years old right and in my mind like this is every 15 year old kid's dream right friends girlfriend everything's going good and i felt completely alone in that room not because i didn't think that any of my friends like they didn't like me no i knew they did but i just felt empty

I just felt like nothing.

I felt numb all the time.

And so about a year before the shooting, I opened up and I called my mom from school one day and I told her, I said, something's wrong with me.

I don't feel right.

I can't make it through the day.

And, uh,

And she did what she could.

She came, she picked me up from school.

She made an appointment to see my doctor the next day.

And, you know, we go to see my doctor and I open up to him and he's asked me, you know, some of the mental health questions about, have I ever thought about hurting myself or killing myself?

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