John (the shooter)

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We're All Insane · I Was a School Shooter · 5 Jul 2026 podcast

helping me out.

And my brother and my sister were great, but I was always afraid to open up to them.

I didn't want my struggle, my pain, my suffering to become theirs.

And so I would try to mask around them and protect them in my mind because I just didn't want them to know just how severe everything was with me.

Yeah, things would just continue to go downhill for a

Eventually, my mom, you know, would keep having meetings with the school trying to improve things because I was failing all of my classes just about.

And she hired an attorney.

And suddenly when the attorney shows up to one of these meetings and the attorney tells the school administration, we're going to sue you and you're going to lose a lot of money and you're going to get a lot of bad publicity.

Now all of a sudden they want to do everything they can to help me, right?

And this just kind of justifies in my mind that they don't give a fuck about me.

They care about money and how they appear to the outside, how they appear to the public.

That's all they care about.

They don't actually care about me or anybody else here.

And that would just kind of like further infuriate me.

And yeah, you know, I got the IEP that I wanted, but it was the end of the school year.

I pretty much failed everything.

And I just felt miserable.

I felt like I failed.

I fucked up.

But at the same time, I didn't want to take accountability as well because I could have done more.

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