Liliana

But it would be...

Me her and then her mom ran the daycare and then she had some siblings, but they were like adults already and then there would be like other kids, you know from other families at this daycare, but My mom called up my cousins at this house And told them the next time you see liliana tell her that she's ugly Just tell her that she's ugly because she cut her hair and we don't want her to cut her hair again so

And again, unbeknownst to four-year-old me, I'm walking around.

My mom and my dad are both telling me how ugly I am and that, oh, you're not my girl anymore because you're ugly and stuff like that.

Like straight telling me to my face, I don't love you anymore because you're ugly.

Four years old, mind you.

So I go to my cousin's house one day.

And I go in and everybody's like, oh my gosh, ew, oh my gosh, ew, you're so ugly now, Liliana.

Like, you know, they wouldn't even hug me.

No, I don't want to hug you.

You're too ugly now and stuff like that.

And it had been going on for like days at this point.

And I was just heartbroken.

And I just like collapsed like in the living room floor and was just sobbing and sobbing.

I'm sorry, I'm ugly.

I'm sorry, I'm ugly.

Like, and...

I didn't even know that my mom told everybody to do that.

I just thought, you know, like, how would I know?

So I just grew up believing, like, I'm not worthy of love if I'm ugly.