Antoinette Lattouf

But you've got your personal life and your personal, I mean, your family is affected.

Again, obviously the public support, that's great for morale.

Sure, in ways.

But was that making you more scared because there's more of a target on your back because now it's, oh, the name Antoinette Latouf is recognisable.

It's at a cost.

And I think when people say things like that to me, it just brings me back to whatever they're talking about.

the awful parts for me personally.

Saying it triggers me is a far too extreme word, I think.

But, you know, for example, if you go to Woolies today, the case has been done for a while.

You've got your media company.

You've got a book.

There are all these things that you have created to continue on.

But to some people, and they're being lovely.

But it brings you back going, oh, I'm,

Do you feel like I'm always going to be this, the most famous sacked person, as your gorgeous daughter said?

And how does that affect your sense of self?

Because I find that my sense of self is really affected and it's very confusing as to what I am or how I'm perceived or what people think of me or what context they see me in.

Potential of what you could have been even internally.

Emotionally, with your family, with your friends and career-wise.

And even though your career is, I mean, bigger than ever from the outside, that's still something that you go, well, actually I could have started at media without all of this.